Rosie Land.

I am sorting out my possessions, throwing things out, collecting things in piles for the charity shop. I was crawling about under my bed (as you do) when I realised that the little box which I keep my small stash of gold jewelry in was gone....
I turned the house upside down, but the little box usually lives under my bed... it's gone...
What...? where....? who...? WTF!?

I don't wear gold often, I wear silver everyday but the gold which I had had sentimental value.

I have had 6 work men come in and out of my house for over a month.... coincidence? If it was a work man maybe he also took my mobile phone which I lost a week into having the workmen in my house?

I don't know....? Should I....? Report it to the police....? Tell my landlord.....? Put it down to being an arse and trusting strangers in my house.....?

I am gutted.

ARSE!!!!!

Where has all my time gone? I want it back!
I seem to have no time for anything lately, sorry I have been neglecting my blog and you my lovely friends but life has gone mad.
I moving out of my house, throwing things away giving them away and trying to hang on to my precious things.

Eric has been coming to visit my family with me, he stayed over last night and gave Bo hell at bed time *tut* naughty boy!
I have been getting even more piercings (I may be a human pin cushion lol!) latest one my belly button.
I also have added two more stars to the back of my neck. This is a terrible pic but it's the best I can manage sorry.

I have just written a bunch of blogs to show you a bit of what I have been doing but.... I have so much more to tell you and no time at the moment to write it all down.

I get so excited about moving out then I worry about the stress it is putting my lovely parents and Bo through, I am so lucky to have them. I get tearful about leaving this house then I get annoyed with myself because I need to move forward.

I have been job hunting like a maniac, no one wants me possibly because I am a maniac for real and my friends and family don't like to mention it because..... erm.... I'm a maniac... LOL!

Bye for now, I will try to catch up on your blogs on Monday evening or Tuesday.
TTFN!

LOL! He wore his Captain Jack Sparrow costume but went a bit more fiendish with make up and teeth.
I went as a dolly.

I love Samhain so much I wish people could dress that way all year. (I actually do as you know lol! )It's my fave festival, for so many reasons.

I'm doing pottery and my fishy obsession has spilled over and I have made some fish. This little fella is a cartoon looking fan tail and in these pics he is quite rough but I have made him smile a bit by shaping his mouth and smoothing him all over to made him look nice for firing, next step glaze...

I have a talented cake making friend, and she made Bo this beautiful yumpcious cakey

Happy Birthday Bo angel.
I hope all your Birthday dreams come true.
I love you.
To me, no matter what, even though you have grown and are now 40, you will always be deep down my adorable, beatiful little sister who makes every day special.

Happy Birthay!!!

Being such a over emotional chap at the moment I thought it best to get myself an emo fringe..... LOL!
I did my best to look all emo and such...

But then... my natural perkiness just kept on rearing it's perky little head, ruining my perfectly decent emo vibe with random grins...

Ok before you see said random grins I would like to make it quite clear that that I lied a bit lol!
The emo look pic was an accident and this emo fingey thing was also a bit of an accident and occurred when I lacked the full courage for a short little Betty Page fringe, I am rock till I die and while I like the look of my adorable mopey emo students I think you may need to be under 20 to fully pull it off. Even then they look a bit like goths with star tattoos.... hang on I just got a star tattoo on the back of my neck!!!
Erm ok glossing over that a bit.... on with the random grins....

LOL! Told you they were random

It is almost 6am now so I'm off to bed. Good night...erm... morning...erm.... ok have a good one catch you later.
XXX

I read your comments and couldn't answer for a while (am still having trouble) because of your loving generous kind support has humbled me and I am so grateful to have such nice people in my life.

Ok... the truth is I kept crying when I went to answer the comments... yeah I know... I'm a wussy, but on the plus side I'm a wussy with really lovely friends.

Thank you all so much. I will answer your comments soon.

XXX

I don't want to live here anymore, last night the boiler broke half way through my much anticipated bath. The damp patch on the concrete floor won't go away. So there is rising damp under the floor now. I fed up. Actually I am fucked off with the whole thing.

Since the love of my life left and then I threw out my boyfriend it hasn't been home, it hasn't been home for over 4 years now. I live in my bed room and the bathroom, I don't use the two spare bedrooms where my hoped for children were meant to go... I don't want this empty lonely house any more. I eat and mostly live with my parents and Bo. When I put my key in the door there isn't any love here, only me and my cat and two dogs. We can live somewhere else some where smaller, nicer, a new start.

If I'm honest I thought for a stupidly long time that the love of my life would come home and that I should be here waiting for him... he has been married for 9 years now and is not coming back... ever. Fuck it that was hard to write.
We never liked this house much anyway, when we made plans we never saw ourselves buying this house it was a stop on our way to better places. He moved on to better, I stayed behind to wait for him.

I need to look forward not back, I need to move away from this house which has a painful memory in each room.
I'm not down or negative I feel excited with new possibilities, I feel hopeful.
Even if it turns to shit it won't be this shit.

I swore, sorry I don't usually but as Billy Connolly says sometimes 'oh dear!' isn't good enough.

I'm freezing cold,

I'm sitting in my cluttered kitchen (with the things from my ruined living room) in outdoors clothes, which involves jeans a hoodie and a fur coat, ugg boots and a beanie hat. I'm applying for jobs on line, desperately seeking employment because my landlord will (we fear be putting the rent up)
The title was ironic, I'm having trouble with finding 3 reasons to be cheerful... well at least right now, right now things seem grim. But I do have hope....
I hope that by tonight the heating will work because the radiators are being hooked up right now Yay!

I am so cold I don't feel like I will ever be warm again, well not unless I sit on a fire...

My landlord has been here working most days and when he's not he drops in to look at stuff... and tuts... He keeps telling me he could get £100 more a month than I pay him.... which makes me feel...

I do have hope of getting a job and keeping my home and keeping my head above water financially... I do alot of hoping, tarot card reading and praying.

In other news:
-On Friday a new tattoo of a star on the back of my neck. I will get someone to take a pic soon when it heals.
-Eric my elderly cat got confused with the new placement of cat litter tray (or it could have been a protest at noise dust and strange people in the house)and had a wee in the corner in front of landlord... Oh dear!
-I went out on Saturday with my lovely girlies, we were not a full cohort but we had fun lol! I had a bit much fun as you can see, since I am the laughing loon on the right.